last week of junior year

it's starting to get a lil surreal realizing the friends you knew, the ones you grew up with are all starting to graduate and yet I've decided to add on another major in hopes of...i'm not really sure any more - i could graduate a semester early, next fall, actually and that's why i've been looking at my choices again

it seems like the logical choice, but i dunno, hopefully at the end of the day - i just hope that things end up well enough...

i've been pretty happy with the way i've let my life take its course but even past that, i know i'm not going to let myself fail, but i think the hard part is to define what failing is and holding yourself to it, i mean, i know i'm scared of something but i'm not sure what it is; it's probably the uncertainty of life; and it's probably that i think about how to make sure i don't fail as opposed to how i will succeed

on a side note, i've realized i've become quite skillful at procrastination - it's weird, i know i work a lot better with an impending deadline and it hasn't failed me yet, i kinda wished - but not really that for one time procrastination totally kicks me in the ass, but thus far it's been pretty good, actually better than expected most the time...the weird, the thing is i dunno how much better the results would be if i didn't procrastinate b/c under those pressures i almost feel like it's an exercise for your mind to be resourceful and just to make things work and not linger on small issues and create links that you wouldn't think of without that pressure. Like a great man once said "Make it work"